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Have you ever had so many thoughts swirling around your head? And you tell yourself. "I will write about this and that later." and ends up forgetting about them? Makoto Shinkai is my now favourite animator. Loved his work. The movies i have watched until now brings sorrow and hope all at the same time! The drawings and pictures are so beautiful and almost perfect, even if it is 2D. And the storyline, heartwrenching and lovely. The movies I have watched up until now. 1. 5 centimeters per second ( Byōsoku Go Senchimētoru) A love story starts at the fall of sakura blooms. 5 centimeters per second. A story about distance and longing. About first love and what might have beens. 2. Your name ( Kimi no na wa) 2 souls connected under the shines and wonders of a comet.  A story about the relations of times and destiny. 3. Garden of words ( Kotonoha no Niwa) Under the dark sky, as the rain falls, a boy and a woman connects, giving hope to each other unknowingly. A s...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim Sometimes I wonder the touch of love the care the worries For families For friends For animals Does it lasts? What does it actually means? The happiness The tears The joy The sadness Accomplished? Or lost?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. I have always wondered about a person a human a homosapien. We walk the earth claimed, harmed, high and mighty rulers of worlds. Complex beings with  feelings and minds some smiles some cries some listless some wistful. Opportunities wide catch the future! they said. But end of the day tired and moody dreams are impossible anyway. How envious for those fortunate with good heart and spiritual happiness. Envy! Fret not Lets Fret Not.

Assalamualaikum and hello. I have always been weight conscious. I am the second child out of three siblings. My family has always been in the appropriate BMI (body mass index) range. I was in love with food. Food feels like my faithful companion. If you made them you need full attention to make the most delicious food you want to serve. If you're buying it, you spend more because you want the best. I had an unhealthy relationship with food. Yep. I was the one who had the healthy appetite, if my mom was unable to finish her plate, i would be the "dumpster" and will definitely finish all the food presented. Wow. And of course, if I am upset, I did not have a companion that I am willing to share all of my worries, so I turn to food. And I kept eating. Aaaannd....All the food will be stored oh so perfectly at the tummy, thighs and upper arm area. I was FAT. And I will always buy the bigger clothes to cover my body. I was ashamed of my body. I was the FAT GIRL. ...

Assalamualaikum and hello. Its been quite some time since i have written anything in the net. I had an old blog, which I, regrettably deleted in vain. I thought I was using it to, you know, vent my feelings and peskered those who humbly read my blog with constant mundane vomitus of unhealthy whining and boring anecdotes. But I have come to discover that, in part, mostly, I tried to hide myself through every single thing that I have ever created. In simpler words, I was not honest. That, hurts myself unknowingly, and contributed so much to my mental health. This time, I would like to be honest. It is for myself. I would like to put me first. I am a swearing old hen who likes to swear under her breath to herself, thinking shit about other people and hides herself under a mask that is neither pretty nor gory, claiming that I am the only person who is right about everything. Some truth heh. I was brought up as a proper girl, reading books like "the little woman" and ...