a new chapter

Assalamualaikum and hello.

Its been quite some time since i have written anything in the net.
I had an old blog, which I, regrettably deleted in vain. I thought I was using it to, you know, vent my feelings and peskered those who humbly read my blog with constant mundane vomitus of unhealthy whining and boring anecdotes.

But I have come to discover that, in part, mostly, I tried to hide myself through every single thing that I have ever created. In simpler words, I was not honest. That, hurts myself unknowingly, and contributed so much to my mental health.

This time, I would like to be honest. It is for myself. I would like to put me first.

I am a swearing old hen who likes to swear under her breath to herself, thinking shit about other people and hides herself under a mask that is neither pretty nor gory, claiming that I am the only person who is right about everything.

Some truth heh.

I was brought up as a proper girl, reading books like "the little woman" and et cetera, dreamed to be the beautiful lady everyone pines for. I would like to think myself as righteous, but as I grow older I learned to realize that who am I to judge people. I am so sorry for those whom I have judged unfairly, as I do not know your story, but I was raised in a society which judging comes naturally.

In my previous blog, I try to paint some things to beautifully but in reality, I was talking shit about others, about things. Of course there were a few post that was my crowning moments, but alas, I did say I regretted deleting it. It would truly show some perspective on who I truly am.

Why did I suddenly decided to create a new blog? Because I was inspired by one of my favorite Youtubers "Simon and Martina". They are a married couple and I am in awe of how much love they have for each other and the world. #buildaladder
Please do check them out. They are AWESOME!

So I guess, this will be my rungs of ladder from now on.

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